iRa’S pAtHeTiC LiFe

i FeLt LiKe mA HeArT HaS bEeN tOrN aPaRt.. OnLy MaNaGe tO eXtEnD 7 dAyS oF sTaY.. HoPeFuLLy.. tHeSe dAyS wOn’T bE a TeArFuL oNeS.. mE n uChIe.. r LiKe fReNs NoW.. mE n YuSaInI, sTiLL tRyInG tO MaKe HiM unDeRsTaNd wHy i cHoSed tHiS dEcIsIon tO LeAvE e BoTh oF ThEm.. tHeRe’S nO SuCh ThInG aS BeSt MaN wInS hErE.. tHrEe HeArTs r bLeEdInG.. n i CaN OnLy SaCrIfIcE eVeRyThInG i HaVe NoW…

i’M fEeLiNg e PuReSt oF PaIn rItE NoW… cRyInG mY hEaRt OuT aLoNe @ hOmE, i WoNdEr iF tHeRe’S aNyOnE oUt ThErE wHo cAn rEaLLy fEeL e PaIn i’M gOiNg tHrU… fEeLs LiKe tHeRe’s No uSe gOiNg oN WiT LiFe.. i’M BaCk tO sQuArE oNe.. ALONE.. cRiTiSmS WiLL sTaRt n tHeY WiLL OnLy sToP wHeN i cLoSe mY eYeS fOrEvEr.. mA gRaNdMA.. sTiLL fInDiNg a WaY tO TeLL HeR.. iF OnLy sHe cLd hEaR mE cRyInG oUt LoUd..

uChIe.. KiTa mInTaK MaaF.. eVeNtHoUgH i DiD eVeRyThInG fOr ReAsOnS, i nOe i’Ve HuRt u a LoT.. bUt.. u sTiLL oCcUpY e MeMoRy cArD oF mA HeArT BaBy.. BuT, BoTh oF uS r HuRt.. n iT rEaLLy HuRts mE whEnEvEr wE sHoUteD @ eAcH oThEr, tRyInG tO bRiNg eAcH oThEr dOwN.. yEaH.. iN TiMeS LiKe tHiS, e FrEnS u oWaYs LaUgHeD wIt, WiLL aLL bE MiSsInG iN aCtIoNs.. BaIk aR.. TaK PaSaL..

yUs.. wHy dO u kEeP TrEatiNg mE sO NiCeLy..? wHy mUsT u BuRdEn UrSeLf bY HeLpInG mE LooK fOr JoBs wHeN u dUn eVeN nOe wHaT u’Re dOiNg aLL tHiS fOr..? u CaN’t eVeN aNsWeR mA SiMpLe QuEs.. R u WiLLiNg tO TaKe cArE oF mE?? dUn sAy u LoVe mE fOr fUn Or fOr NoThInG.. cOz rAcHeL dOeSn’T NeEd a MaN tO CoMpLeTe hEr LiFesTyLe.. rAcHeL dOeSn’T NeEd a MaN to RuLe HeR BeLoNgInGs.. eVeNtHoUgH sHe LoVeS u sO MuCh, bUt iF u CaN’T aNsWeR hEr SiMpLe QuEs, tHeN fOrGeT aBt MaKiNg HeR uRs. kEnApA.. BeRaT kE sOaLaN Tu?? BiLa tGh MaRaH, mCm2 BoLe diLuAh.. TaPi sEbENaRnYa dLm HaTi, TuHaN SaJa yG TaHu..

tO tHOsE wHo cOmMeNtEd, rAcHeL pUt HeR HaNds ToGeThEr, sMiLe n BoW aS hEr tOkEn oF aPpReCiAtIoN..

LoVe……. rAcHeL………

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