PrObAbLy mY LaSt bLoG…
rAcHeL jUz wAnNa MaKe tHiS cLeAr- i bLoGgEd nOt tO be sYmPaThIzEd.. i bLoGgEd tO LeT mA fEeLiNgS oUt.. hOw MaNy oF u rEaLLy gIvE a f**k aBt mA PrObLeMs..? e TiMeS wHeN i’M dOwN.. wHeN i cRiEd.. hOw MaNy oF u rEaLLy gIf uR ShOuLdEr tO cRy oN?? nI bUkaN NaK bErKaTa-kAtA kAsAr.. TaPi sEkAdAr MeNgInGaTkAn.. KaLaU aDa yG InGaT tAk nAk MaSuk CaMpUr.. aKu PuN tAk MiNtAk.. iTs NoT LiKe aS if, e mOmEnT u ReAd mA bLoG, u aLrEaDy VoLuNtEeR UrSeLf iNtO mY PrObLeMs.. nO! u’Re fReE tO ReAd.. GiVe cOMmEnTs n oPiNiOns.. aNd jUz tO LeT u NoE, i rEaLLy rEaLLy aPpReCiAtE iT VeRy mUcH pEePs n i LuRvE u aLL tO e MaX!! n tHoSe wHo aCtUaLLy MaKe tImE ReAdInG mA bLoG, mSgInG mE iN fRiEnDsTeR wIt tHoSe HeArTfuL wOrDs.. ThAnX a MiLLiOn.. i nOe mA tHaNx r nEvEr eNuFF…
FeW dAyS i’Ve NoT bEeN bLoGgInG, i’M sTiLL vErY dOwN.. HaRi RaYa HaJi wAs a qUiEt oNe @ mA gRaNdPaReNtS’ pLaCe.. WeNt tHeRe wIt sWoLLen eYeS.. ReAsOn i GaVE.. cOnTaCt LeNsEs.. LaMe.. n oH yA.. w/o eNgAgEmEnT rInG aLsO.. LuCky mA gRaNdPaReNtS NeVa NoTiCe.. bUt mY aUnT nOtIcEd.. n.. wE TaLkEd aBt iT.. i sPeNt mOsT oF e TiMe iNsIdE mA gRaNdMa’S rOoM.. sHeDdInG tEaRS w/o hEr kNoWiNg..
mA gRaNdMa.. wAs oWaYs sEeMed HaPpY eVeRytImE aLL hEr cHiLdReN n GrAnDcHiLdReN GaThErEd @ hEr pLaCe.. eVeN uChIe cAme.. fOr a wHiLe OnLy.. N e bEsT tHiNg iS.. sHe NeVa fAiLs to CoOk fOr uS.. sHe’S LiKe a MoThEr tO mE.. tOoK CaRe oF mE sInCe i wAs 3 mThs oLd.. sInCe ThEn i CaLLed HeR "mAk"…. mA gRaNdMa jUz ReCoVeReD fR AMI.. ACUTE MYOCARDIAL INFARC.. a SiLeNt HeArT aTtAcK.. aCcOrDiNg tO e dOc, e rIsK oF dEaTh iS HiGh.. sO wE CaN’T aFfOrD tO LeT hEr dOwN wIt uNnEcCeSaRy wOrRiEs.. mE… i’M e eLdEsT gRaNdcHiLd.. n i CaN’T aFfOrD tO LeT hEr NoE mA PrObLeMs… i’M WiLLiNg tO sAcRiFiCe mA HaPpInEsS fOr HeR.. sAyInG tHiS TeArFuLLy iNsIdE mA HeArT… "i juz want her to be happy.."
bOtH gUyS mEt.. YuSrI n YuSaInI.. i’M rEaLLy HuRt.. dAmN HuRt.. oNe KeEp MaKiNg mE fEeL gUiLtY, oNe cOnTiNuE tReAtInG mE sO NiCeLy.. bOtH gUyS eVeR sHeD rEaL TeArS fOr mE.. wAt dO i Do..? i’M e oNe sUppOsEd tO mAkE e dEcIsIoN.. bUt wHeN i cRiEd.. bOtH jUz DuN uNdErStAnD… sO wHeRe dO i sTaNd..?
tOmOrO iS mA LaSt dAy in S’pOrE.. kk sOrrY.. fOrGoT tO TeLL yA.. i’M e OnLy MaLaYsIAn in Da FaMiLy bUt s’PoRe eDuCaTeD.. dAh 4 mThS tAk WeRk.. sO gOtTa gO BaCk ThErE b4 i GeT MaSeLf a nEw jOb.. nOt yEt PR.. dUnnO y La.. tHat oNe gOtTa aSk mY iRrEsPoNsIbLe FaThEr.. sO i wOn’T bE sEeInG u GuYs aNymOrE.. nOt iN mSn eVeN.. tHiS cLd bE mY LaSt bLoG.. cOz i dUn fEeL LiKe cUmInG BaCk hErE.. bUt iT aLL dEpEnDs oN wHeThEr i cAn sTiLL eXtEnD mY sTaY oR NoT LA.. iF nOt, tHeN TaTa TiTi TuTu… sO SaD!!!!
iF rAcHeL HuRts aNyOnE wIt HeR wOrDs.. tHeN rAcHeL aPoLoGiEs..
LuRvE…. rAcHeL…
